I m in a foul mood so ill try and write it out the buisness with the police has set me off i just feel like smacking someones head but i know thats not right i just feel like im going to be victimised over again i always think the worse then if i get good news it s great news but going through this is no good for me its times like these id love to be smoking pot again at least that stops me feeling anything and stop my mind going over same thing over and over thats what makes it worse you go over every outcome and then your reaction i feel like just running again thats what i ve done all my life move on but i ve got my family here.its funny when im on the road by myself im so happy yet numb i sometimes wonder if im going to end up as a bum you know the kind walking around dirty and drugged fucked or a acholic pity i dont drink anymore but its also a good thing as im a cunt when i drink so maybe a pot head