Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Got a call from mum today the det is supposed to call her sooon to ask her a couple of questions he is supposed to be wrapping things up thank fuck it been nearly a year. i also heard about my olderdaughter sam she has to move out of her home she has nt been paying rent her boyfriend is as usless as tits on a bull. he gambles drinks and drives with the kids in the car a couple of weeks ago he crashed it with one of the girls in the car she had to spend the night in the hospital and he is going to lose his licence again he only got it back a couple of months ago .she worries me she can do better but she puts up with him must be love or something like that.

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Today the thoughts of depression surfaced again they are always there some times just under the surface sometimes the climb out.It's not like when i was single i used drugs to blank everything out now i have to face it.A Dr in aus wanted to give me tablets but i refused with my addiction problem i would just over use them as i have in the past . i used to take 10 Valium at a time and cyapax they would wipe the night out it was the same when i used to blast speed i loved the risk taking the injection. but having kids you cant take them risks . I rem one night lying in front of the gas heater and thinking if i blew out the pilot light and just turn it on I'd eventually fall asleep the another thought entered my mind if god wanted me dead he'd blow the light out for me.I had fought all my life to stay alive so why after all that would these stupid thoughtsa enter my mind. Depression its a bad thing and so hard to fight sometimes .Its a battle im going to have the rest of my life and my girls and liam are the ones who have to put up with it sometimes i wonder if i'd be better of alone i have always been that way and just go where ever i want but i cant see my self being away from the girls now.

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Well I'm going to try something different now .When i got counselling for my abuse as a child the counselor told me to write mourning pages daily 3 pages if possible.So i need to do this again as so many thoughts go through my head.I keep thinking about my case if it every comes up do i go in person or video link .Why cant i let this go Emma thinks i hold onto it to much but i have fought tooth and nail to try and get justice so after putting in such an effort first med board said no case then police said the same but instead of giving up i kept at them first the medical board they did nt want to go ahead i had to go before a three member board and give my story it must have worked because next thing i get letter saying that they will proceed after all. Next was the police case the copper was a prick and i complained to the police ombudsman i had to go and see the they said because it was over a year that there was nothing they could do and i told them i had rang when it first happened with the det but no one got back to me so they looked into it then i get a letter that they had investigated and because i was over 16 that's why the police did nt go ahead.I had almost given up on the police case then i reread the email and saw the date they where talking about 1980 i write back and told them i was nt 16 till sept that year and she sent it back and said that they had looked at my birth date as 65 and never checked the actual date so it was sent to a inspector at rosebud police station and he got in contact with me and said he will investigate.I went back to Australia for my case with the medical board went and saw the barrister then the day i had waited for came.The first day i was in a room by myself mum and my sister had to sit outside separate because they were witness.The first day was arguing between the lawyers and i sat in the room it was adjourned for the day .Next day i went in and had to go to the toilet and who was there him i walked straight out resisting the urge to smash his head in but then that would have served no purpose.After sitting in the room i get called out and then it begins his lawyer starts questioning me she says that the reason that the med board had not gone ahead was because i said that he was nt circimstised and in a later statement said i think he was and that was because i had read his statement saying he was.I said i never saw his statement it was never passed on to me i saw the reaction on the boards face i had convinced them that i never saw it which i never maybe i was supposed to get a copy i don't know. then she said"is nt it true that i had put in a claim for criminal compo and that the police was nt intersted in my case.I replied that was nt true as i had got a call 2 days before my hearing that they are going ahead that made everyone look and his barrister said your honour we need to talk i was put back in the room after an hour i was asked the dets name and my lawyer called him to comfirm . I was then brought back to the hearing and told they cant proceed untill the police case was over in case the dr incrimated himself. I felt cheated but it is only on hold hopefully the police case will finish soon after all it has been a year how much longer can it take.

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Been thinking heaps about my childhood latly.Even though i never had much i had a great childhood.I remember one time i got the cane i was in assembly i was told to come to the front me and another boy had done something cant remember what it was now.so we got caned i remember the headmaster saying that it was the first time he had to do this in front of the whole school it was nt the last time that i got caned in front of whole school the next time i got it was for throwing stones at anothewr school who had been at ours for sports day.we got beat and as we where walking home to the estate the other school was heading back there was about 6 of us including my sister Julie and her friend .Well being from Northern Ireland we stoned them and then went home .Next day we went to school and were called to assembly. the head master was furious he said about the inicdent and how a stone had hit a girl in the eye she was injured but ok.He then said to the army kids you can go back to school the the redburn kids because it was wrong direction from there estate which left us white city kids.he asaked us who did it no one owned up then a boy who had nothing to do with it stepped foward so i came foward the others came to my sister was about to step out and i shook my head so she steeped back in line . there we where about 6 including the innocent one i think we all said he had nothing to do with it so he went back .Then out came the cane 6 of the best each i had by this time just used to it so to me it was nt a punishment it was just a annocence.as i would nt let them see me in pain.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

The b.e.t awards are on folling the latin awards .Now call me stupid but are they saying they need their own awards because they are'nt as good as white people or is it because we are nt as good as them ? I suppose it's reverse racism if there was a white awards you would hear the outcry,yet white people dont say anything because we might offend but how can we offend after all we are excluded from these "minority awards" but who is the real minority?

Monday, June 26, 2006

Well it's hard to get back into blogging after returning from Australia.I'm busy every day and by time night comes im to tired to think (not to unusual ) but after watching the world cup today, what can i say the ref got it wrong and give the itia's the game he must'nt have wanted to go through another 30 min's in the heat.I will tell you this for free its ruined the world cup for me who to cheer no orange men the poms rely on the whinger rooney who has failed to do anything but pull faces.I'm waiting for him to throw a tantrum. go Brazil.

Saturday, May 27, 2006

I sent a email to the police about 2 weeks ago yet no reply it's like my life has been put on hold i actually felt like i might get somewhere? If i had nt pestered the police my case would have been over by now. I could have started putting it behind me but no the medical board adjourned because the dr could be facing gross indecany charges from the police.
Looking at him was the strangest thing he was a old man now and was wearing a suit trying to look digified but he and i knew the truth i wish he had the decany to admit the truth and just face his pusihment that would be the right thing to do.One thing i did notice his wife was nt by his side you would think she would be there supporting him .
Gday, it's hard to get back into blogging after 3 months.My neice Vicki returns to Aus on tuesday that will be sad i've had a touch of Aus while she was here plus she's great company always talking.Its funny that is probably i miss about Australia my family mind you i miss my other 2 sisters from back home. Being here is great i ve got my daughter and another due in aug plus Liam and Taylor,and of course Emma.But sometimes i feel so alone as i really have no one around.

Monday, May 22, 2006

Well been back here nearly a month and still trying to get over what happened in Aus.I finally got to have my day in court but that was brought to an aburt halt .The most freaky thing was on the second day? I got there and needed to go to the dunny and went in and who was there him i walked stright out never thought anything .Later i wish i had just beat the living crap out of him,but i know then i would spend the rest of my life in trouble and he will not take anymore from me hes took enough.I ve been thinking about writing a victim impact statment

Friday, May 12, 2006

F.A CUP FINAL
LIVERPOOL V WEST HAM
It has come to the last saturday in english football and the reds are playing for their 7th cup and i think they will win 2-0 at least .The last 2 years we have put chelsea out of a cup comp in the semi's and is nt it sweet next year its time to win the championship.

Monday, May 08, 2006

Football season is over and Liverpool finished thirdand beat utd and Chelsea on the way to the F.A cup final which is on weekend but not on t.v here .Over all it's been a good season we finished with more points than last year and can only improve.The best thing was putting the blue's out in another semi final .

Sunday, May 07, 2006

The trip to Australia with saoirse was great.The flight was tiring for the first leg to Honoulu as it was full but after that i lucked out and had 3 seats to my self so Saoirse got 2 and slept most of the way there.We landed in Melbourne and met my bro in law and niece Vicki as we waited for the bags i saw the Victorian cricket team the bushrangers got my bags and guess what the pram was nt there so of i went to try and find out where it was and the woman there was the most ignorant person i ve meet for awhile she was talking like i was trying to con them into buying a new pram she kept saying "where is your baggage claim for it." I tried to explain it wasn't checked in as i got it when we landed in honoulu and the Sydney she said "but you have nt got a claim so " to which i replied "how the hell do you think i got this far with out a pram and with a baby and bags then" i was pissed but did nt get angry as i know it does nt get you nowhere. As we were waiting Shane Warne (a famous cricketer) came and reported his golf clubs lost as well they where much nicer to him and my neice was earwigging(listening) to his convo.We drove to werribee and saoirse took to it like a duck to water . Ill write somemore tomorrow about our time in Melb.

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Hello im back in canada.
there is lots to talk about but getting over jetlag so couple more day's and ill write about the case and what went on .

Thursday, February 02, 2006

I'M OFF TO AUSTRALIA TOMORROW SEE YOU SOON I HOPE.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006


A few nationalist bloggers are asking why unionistists dont want to power share with s/f/ira?
Now after the imc report who can blame them they have give up there weapons but they have the money and recource's to start stright up again if things dont go there way.
They should give all the illgotten gains up and totally disband because while there is still a leadership they really are'nt out of the picture .I know they said by political mean's but is nt that what s/f are there political wing so no need for them to excist as a enity anymore .

IRA in link to £70m property empire
An IRA link to a massive £70m-plus property empire in the Republic is being investigated by several Garda specialist units.
A series of raids on businesses, houses and the offices of professional advisers has been carried out in four counties in the past week.
A huge dossier of documentation, seized in the searches which began a week ago and ended yesterday, will now be analysed to establish if any of the businesses were used to launder IRA monies.
The investigation was ordered by Garda chiefs as a result of last year's Operation Phoenix into a Provisional IRA money laundering operation which included the proceeds of the £26m robbery from the Northern Bank in Belfast.
The inquiries are based on suspicions held by the Criminal Assets Bureau that the empire was initially financed from the proceeds of crime

Provo spies are still active
On-going IRA actions, including intelligence-gathering on police and Army personnel, do not cast doubt on the Provisionals' intentions to abandon terrorism, Northern Ireland's paramilitary watchdog said today.
The four-man commission said there had been no sanctioned paramilitary attacks or authorised robberies by the IRA.
But some members continued to be involved in significant crime and occasional, unauthorised, assaults, the report said.
There had also been at least six unreported assaults which appear to have been mostly the spontaneous result of personal disputes
But the IMC said it believed there is a "clear strategic intent" to turn the organisation on to a political path and "good evidence" this is happening even given possible constraints on the leadership.
So who can really blame the unionist's for not wanting to share power with these men would you?

Times comming now?
Only 2 more days and ill have to get up in the middle of the night to watch Liverpool play.
I went and got Saoirse's passport today so everything is ready on that front bags almost packed.
My flight takes me to Vancouver then Hawaii then Sydney before getting to Melbourne 9.30 sunday morning so i miss saturday. Tommorow we will go and see the flamingo's for the last time ill post tomorrow but after that who know's it will either be soon or 3 months time hard to tell.
While im away ill have my cd of fav songs and listen to Neil Young
comming home .And there's the flamingo's

Monday, January 30, 2006

It's monday night and time is passing quickly, you would think that i'd be happy going to heat from cold and seeing my family .
I am in a way but it means i have to leave my family here and that make's me sad .

Well Well look he we play in the 5th round of the F.A cup time for us to get revenge and im sure Robbie will be playing by then he might get his first game this wed against the brumbys .LETS HOPE SO

Sunday, January 29, 2006

This is it my final week in Canada.
only 4 more days and then me and Saoirse are out of here,how do i feel strange i should be happy i'm going to see my family but Melbourne holds bad memorys for me and i hope taking Saoirse will make them better.
I'll see tre start of the footy season and the commonwealth game's as well as the grand prix so it will be busy in Melbourne .
hopefully we will get to see some kangeroo's and kaola's there is a park not far it had a fire so hopefully it was nt totally destroyed.
Portsmouth 1-2 Liverpool

Gerrard scored his 16th goal of the season with a first-half penaltyLiverpool edged past Portsmouth to reach the FA Cup fifth round
A MORNING IN WEST EDMONTON.



This is the west edmonton mall in the distance .

Saturday, January 28, 2006

Emma went to see her M.P yesterday.
It was good news once i come back all i have to do is put in for permanent residence status and i can stay while it is being considered and will most likely get it because of family.
So i'll be in melbourne for 3 months to get everything sorted then i'll be back.
Now i will enjoy my hoilday with Saoirse i get to show her my place (not the great place wich is northern Ireland) Melbourne and the commonwealth games will be on .

Friday, January 27, 2006

Rank and file soldiers have been talking about their unease at the prospect of being deployed to Afghanistan later this year.
Members of the unofficial but popular Army Rumour Service website have been responding to the announcement an extra 3,300 British soldiers are being sent to help with Nato's International Security Assistance Force [Isaf] peace-keeping duties.
One soldier has a specific message for Defence Secretary John Reid.
"If I have to bull [polish] my boots and carry any mates off the back of a[n RAF] herc[ules] Mr Reid needs to know that I will hold him personally responsible," he writes.
"If it's me being carried then I will have left explicit instructions and half of my life insurance to someone who will avenge me."
The thing that interest's me is my newphew is going my sister is worried but he say's that's what he's trained for at least he did nt go to iraq and bush,blair's illigel war but good luck to him hope he keep's his head down.
portsmouth v Liverpool 4th round F.A cup
will Robbie get his first game?
My newphew is going to this game and i hope it's a great one one day if i move back to U.K i'll go and watch them but till then go reds

GREAT NEWS

HE'S BACK Robbie Flower is back at Liverpool, i have always said it was a mistake .

His career has nt been the same since he left now he has the chance to finish his career where he should have been all along welcome back.

And on a sadder note cisse has been charged with assulting his pregnant wife now i know he's under pressure even more now robbie's back.

but it does'nt excuse hitting a woman .

Peter Hain a man who appease's sinn fein./i.r.a.
S/F TO GET ALLOWENCE'S BACK
Sinn Fein MPs were specially granted allowances, even though they refused to swear the Oath of Allegiance to the Queen or sit in Parliament.
Their members were receiving an average of just under £110,000 each per year before the payments were stopped, as a sanction in the wake of the £26.5 million Northern Bank robbery.
Conservative Shadow Northern Ireland Secretary David Lidington agreed.
He said: "This is entirely the wrong move by the Government. It is asking the Commons to give up to £500,000 in allowances to Sinn Fein MPs who refuse to take their seats.

"At the same time, the Government of Wales Bill, currently going through the Commons, disqualifies members of the Welsh Assembly from claiming allowances and salaries until they take their seats and forces them to vacate their seats if they don't take them up within two months.
"And who is the Secretary of State for both Wales and Northern Ireland? Peter Hain," he said.
So does this show the path that Blair and his cronney Hain are taking ,A fair and equal country?

Thursday, January 26, 2006


AUSTRALIA DAY TO DIFFERENT STYLE'S
This time next week will be my last day in Canada for 3and a half months.
I really don't want to go back to Aus now dont get me wrong it's a great country.
But to me it is scarred after all it was my second chance ,after going through all that shit growing up abuse,parents leaving,beating by teachers but one thing i loved Northern IRELAND.
Now i know many dont consider it a country but it is to most of us who grew up there it's home and call it what you want it is still home.
Going to Australia was my second chance at life free to do what ever i wanted people would look after me .And what happens im delivered into the hands of a pedophile,the next 15 years where drugs drink and fights and travelling .A couple of long term relionships thrown in but the where just as bad drinking drugs and fighting(verbal)i never knew why i hated myself but once i had the revelation of being abused it all made sence.
After that Australia was never the same especially Melbourne it made sence why i was always happier when i was alone travelling .
Now i'll have to do thing's when i get there to look after Saoirse and that will keep me busy .
I cant wait to get back here then it will be time for the baby to be born and hopefully thats me here for good .

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

I read a peice in the paper yesterday saying "that the 23rd of jan will be the most depressing day of the year" some English guy had calculated it .
Boy was he right ,i never relished how much i really love it over here untill i got that letter.
Dont get me wrong i still suffered from depression but only because uncertainty ,of staying here i knew one day i'd be told to leave and boy did it hit hard .
But i have now come to terms and we will get everything sorted out before i come back in 3 months and extra bonus i get a long summer because when i return it starts to warm up over here .
And if thats not good enough it will only be about 2 months to the arrivel of our new born.and bonus i dont have to listen to complaints about im bloated or i cant do this or can you do that after all im carring your baby, only joking emma's not like that but it lightens my mood up i love to have something to talk about.
I don't know if i'll be able to post as i'll be staying at my mums house because i sold my house to my sister she has made it a home where as when i was there it was a house.
I have said before that it was the place where i spent the longest time i was there 5 years before that the longest was a year.
Canada will be my final stop except for hoildays to northern Ireland,Scotland and Australia.
but ill try and write more so i get things off my chest and Emma can see how things are going (even though we talk everyday.

Monday, January 23, 2006

The bush fire's are comming under control in Anikie ,Brisbane ranges.
That is about 30 min's drive from Werribee i go to the range's alot as i get to see the wildlife there and there is a fairy park its in the shape of a castle and has puppets that move and sing .Hopefully it was spared it should have been as its on top of rock .It will be one of the place's that i take Saoirse to see when we get there if the bushfire's are over?
First Liverpool get beat then next day i get letter saying i've got to leave Canada stright away and im torn .
Emma is letting me take saorse for 3 month's and that will be great except i feel guilty that she will be leaving her family behind as i will but im used to leaving i do it all the time.
But when i got the letter my heart sunk and just the thought of not seeing Saoirse every day just broke my heart see with Emma' Taylor and Liam they are old enough to understand but Saoirse does nt and after having me every day it would have been hard .
So if i cant stay here ill move to Scotland and then at least its cheaper to fly to here from there and not as far .so if you dont hear from me much it's because i wont have much time but i'll drop in once in awhile .

Sunday, January 22, 2006

The whale in LONDON died .
it is a sad event but the coverage that it recived was unreal .where was this coverage as japan killed hundreds of whales in the southern hemisphere.How can so many people get this upset about alone whale while ignoring the plight of hundreds.
I'll never understand humans.
There has been another snake bite in weribee .A great grandmother was bitten by a 1.5 metre brownsnake.
Valerie Makin saw the snake out of the corner of her eye as it was about to bite her. some vemon got in a scratch but did nt enter her blood stream .
Thats the second one this season usually its rare around werribee but as we impoach on there terrority there will probably be more.

IS GOOFY A DOG?
Taylor and myself had a discussion today about goofy i said "he's a dog" she said "he's not".
She even tried to look it up and there was divided thoughts on it one even said that he was half human half dog, now if thats true what was walt into?
to me he is a dog he has same ears as pluto same nose same eye's only differance is he got to speak and pluto became "a mouse's pet" now that in it self is weird a mouse having a pet .
Man utd 1 Liverpool 0
What can i say we out played them in the midfield ,but our scorers let us down Cisse had the worst game i had saw him play he was out of touch with the other players.
utd scored in the 90th min and it was a defender who had nt scored in over 100 games that headed it past reina.Liverpools mistake they tried for the point towards the end and let utd in the game .But it will either boost us or break us we still have 2 game's in hand .

Saturday, January 21, 2006

Lesson's of yesterday have nt been learnt?
Friday 20th January 2006Twice as many Catholics as Protestants are employed working for cross-border bodies in Northern Ireland, it has emerged.
The statistic has been described as proof of the "blatantly pro-nationalist, antiunionist agenda of the whole North-South apparatus" by Lord Laird of Artigarvan.
The Ulster Unionist peer was provided with the employment figures by the Government, in answer to a parliamentary question.
The Northern Ireland population is roughly 57 per cent Protestant and 43 per cent Catholic.
However, of the 209 people employed by North-South Implementation Bodies in the Province, 131 are Catholics, 69 Protestant and nine non-determined.
Lord Laird said: "I, and many other unionists, did not sign up to the Belfast Agreement for full-scale discrimination against my community.
This is all part of a grand republican agenda - a pro-Irish agenda.
"As unionists, we have for years been demonised as a community, accused of being anti-Catholic and taken to task on equality.
"We have been the victims of a nationalist propaganda campaign which has said unionists are persecutors and nationalists are victims.
"Republicans and nationalists would have the world believe they are non-sectarian guardians of equality.
"Well, here is the evidence in black and white of the real, cloak-and-dagger nationalist agenda."
Lord Laird said he would be pursuing the issue with the Government and said the north-south bodies should be the subject of an Equality Commission review.
He also claimed that the figures told unionists what they always knew: "Our community will never be welcome or fairly treated in Ireland".
Now this come's as no suprise as i have seen how unionist's are precived all over the world. Wrongly might i add ,yes our forefather's did some bad thing but so did the republic's to protestants. So again are we doomed to repeat history ? It seems so

Friday, January 20, 2006

Agreat day for the real people of Northern Ireland.
We hear alot about we should get on and forgive but to many families how can they forgive when there crie's for justice have fallen on deaf ears.We hear alot these days about a united Ireland but first we have to unite the north there is to much divide to even think about a united Ireland .

Unsolved NI deaths probe begins
Dave Cox and Phillip James of the HETA specialist team has begun to review unsolved murders committed during the Northern Ireland Troubles.
The Historical Enquiries Team, which has a budget of more than £30m, will re-examine 3,268 killings between 1969 and the 1998 peace accord.
The squad of about 100 detectives and support staff will need between five and seven years to complete its work.
Northern Ireland's Chief Constable, Sir Hugh Orde, said he hoped it would bring closure to many families.
"The families have a right to know as much as we can tell them," he said.
"If there are lines of inquiry to follow which gives us an opportunity to go to court, that team will deliver against that.
Jail terms
The review team, led by retired Metropolitan Police Commander David Cox, will use the latest forensic science and intelligence analysing technology.
Mr Cox said the team's two main aims would be to "offer answers and a greater level of resolution to bereaved families".
"I do not for a moment underestimate the complexity of this challenge or the potential emotional stress for relatives associated with re-visiting these tragic events," he said.
"That is why families will sit at the very heart of our investigations, and that is why our primary objective will be to work with them to achieve some measure of resolution for them."
There will be two distinct investigative units - one will be made up exclusively from officers from outside Northern Ireland, who would work on cases, where, for example, there had been allegations of security force collusion.
The team said they would be operationally independent from the PSNI, but would report to the chief constable.
The Northern Ireland Secretary, Peter Hain, said it was quite possible that people would serve jail terms as a result of the new murder investigations.
He told the BBC some of the murders involved members of the security forces and all would be investigated thoroughly.
"We're dealing with some of the most horrific circumstances ever in Northern Ireland's troubled history, the worst.
"Twenty, 30 years ago, things were done which should not have been done, either by terrorists or in some cases - a limited number of cases - by members of the security forces. All of them will be investigated and there will be closure on them."
'Past issues'
The BBC's Ireland correspondent Kevin Connolly said the relationship between republicans and unionists is not good enough for a Truth and Justice Commission.
Inquiries focusing on the 30 years of the Troubles are long and expensive, he added - Lord Saville's inquiry into Bloody Sunday has taken seven years and cost more than £150m.
Mr Connolly said: "Some way has to be found to deal with the many issues from the past that dominate the day-to-day political agenda.
"The cold case team is the government's latest answer."
Work on the first 100 cases is due to begin on Monday.

Man Utd v Liverpool
This is a big test for the reds.
if we win this we go to second place with still 2 games in hand and we play chelsea in the next couple of weeks and that will be our chance to close the gap.So it is all up to the team now to show the faith they have in each other and it is there you can see by the way they play .
On a great note Riise has signed to 2009 he has been with the club since 2001 and hopefully he will see out his career there and we get back to the loyalty not from player's its time for the clubs to start showing faith in the players.After all Cisse is still there Liverpool picked up defenders during the transfer so they have shown that they want to keep the players they have and that can only be good for the club.

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Today i heard some intersting news ?
Seems that saoirse is going to have a brother or sister, Emma is pregnant so it has thrown everything up in the air .Now i'm going back to Aus in may because the baby is due around july or aug.My neice is comming back with me so she will be here 2 months the only down side is that Liam will miss out on his trip to nelson which was in doubt anyway .
I have nt driven over here and was going to rent a car but i would have to driven through the mountins and it will be dangerous because of the snow.was going to do it when weather was warmer it would be safer .Now many might say thats wimpy but id rather side on caution that risk my kids for a drive.and anyway would nt it be more fun in the summer with heat .T he temp here is back to normal it was minus 13 today and bits of snow.

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Global warming?
Seems that Edmonton is having a warm winter so far.They were saying on the weather if it stays like this records will be broken.
overnight it is 18 degree's below normal and daytime its going above 0 alot ill get figures at end of month .
There is also the story of the inuits who are going to sue the yanks because of greenhouse gass,es they are having trouble going hunting because the ice is frozen as much as it usually is at this time of year.
Maybe you have nt noticed it but it is happening ,it was like living in aus there was always reports about the hole in the ozone layer and how it gets bigger .
so rem that we are leaving this world for others including our children and its time to take action .
After all we just our borrowing this time from the earth and in the last hundred years we have done more damage that the last couple of million years.
Oil will run out yet we have only been depentant on it for the last hundred or so years .
earthquakes, hurricianes,tsunami's weird weather just look at the world we live in and see what we are doing to it
TWO brothers with muscular dystrophy had to crawl to their car after security guards at a Melbourne shopping centre refused to let them take wheelchairs inside, their sister said today.
'sandra Costa said her brothers, in their 40s, were in tears after security at Westfield's Fountain Gate shopping centre forced them to discard the borrowed wheelchairs at the entrance.
She said she was told it was policy not to allow the centre's wheelchairs out of the complex but bollards prevented vehicles getting up to the entrance.
"It was only probably about three metres to get the chairs out but the security guard wouldn't allow us to bring them out," she told Southern Cross radio.
"So one of my brothers had to get down and crawl to the car ... the other one half-crawled; I picked him up but it's really hard to get them in the car because they're big guys.
"One of my brothers was crying and swearing in the car (on the way home) to be honest and he said he's never going back there again.
"It was really humiliating to see them just crawl to the car."
Ms Costa said her brothers just wanted to be treated as human beings.
"I just think they (Fountain Gate management) should have a bit of dignity and compassion and change the rule," she said.
Westfield issued a statement apologising for the incident, saying the guidelines for use of wheelchairs at its centres would be reviewed immediately.
"The company is investigating the incident, which appears to have arisen over the interpretation by staff of guidelines governing the safe use of wheelchairs and other equipment provided to shoppers outside the centre," the statement said.
"The company deeply regrets the embarrassment and indignity suffered by the two shoppers and their family and will seek to meet with them privately to apologise and explain the steps taken to avoid this or similar incidents occurring again."
The Muscular Dystrophy Association of Australia (MDA) said similar incidents were reasonably common about 15 years ago.
"(But) as an organisation we haven't received notification of this kind of complaint for a long time," executive director Boris Struk said.
He shared Ms Costa's disappointment and said commonsense should have prevailed.
"Whether it's a strict policy or someone overstepped the mark, people should be a bit more compassionate and caring about two individuals who needed assistance to traverse three metres with a wheelchair," he said.
"What are they going to do - run away with it?"
The flamingo's are back they returned yesterday and Saoirse was happy to see them.She is going through a lazy stage at the moment weeks ago she wanted to walk everywhere. this week as soon as i put her down to walk she lets herself loose and drops to the ground the the arms go in the air to say pick me up .
As we where walking home today i let her walk on the path there had been a small bit of snow and she walked on it she kept saying "whats that" and just standing there then i grabbed her hand and she walked.
She was having a blast till she fell and got snow on her hand then the hands went up and the tears started ,she cried all the way home.
Another thing that happened on the way home was she was eating and had a glove off ,a woman got off a bus that was passing and saw her hand and said her hand looks cold .
Why do people think you don't know whats going on with your kids i have had a couple people give me advice while it might be well meaning its annoying of course her hand was cold but she wanted that rusk and after she finished it the fuss getting her glove on she hates them.I am at the belief that most parents know their children and know when to act .

Monday, January 16, 2006

A new slant on Northern Ireland
Wake Up To Reality, Republicans Are Urged
Monday 16th January 2006

East Belfast Ulster Unionist MLA Michael Copeland has called on republicans to wake up to reality and work at creating a united Northern Ireland.

Speaking at a conference in Cork University, he said that it was interesting to see how little successive Dublin regimes had done to reach out the hand of friendship and understanding to their Northern neighbours. "Continued demands for re-unification of the island of Ireland, outside the context of the United Kingdom, fly in the face of public opinion North and South and represent a wish that has more to do with creative imagination than impassionate reality," he said. "Our first duty must be to work at creating a united and pluralist Northern Ireland, thereby allowing our citizens to accept both the responsibilities and benefits of citizenship and allow our children to become the inheritors of the future instead of the prisoners of the past."
Dreams what do they mean?
i've had about 4 dreams with the same theme over the past week .Its always me leaving somewhere but the dreams them self are totally weird, like one i had my mode of transport was the titanic and all it's ghostly occupants but the thing with that one was i called it when i needed to get somewhere and i was nt afraid i knew i was safe. The theme is always the same im leaving people behind .

here are some pictures of Melbourne, THE BEACH BOXS COME IN HANDY I SLEPT IN ON A COUPLE OF TIMES WHEN I WAS YOUNGER.
CADAVARS ON SHOW.
i see that melbourne is to get the 'art exhibition' where the bodie's have been plastined the show even has fetuses .

The exhibition has sparked controversy across the world, but that has not stopped more than 18 million viewing the exhibition across the US, UK, Europe and Asia.
N ow maybe im getting old and a fuddyduddy but come on how morbid are we becoming look at the picture the two in it looked facinasited by it.I would nt go out of respect for myself and others who are supposed to be 'human beings' it is taking one of gods wonders ands making it a side show .
SAN FRANCISCO, California (AP) -- The U.S. Supreme Court rejected an appeal Monday from a 76-year-old convicted killer who argued that he was too old and feeble to be executed.
The ruling cleared the way for Clarence Ray Allen -- legally blind, nearly deaf and in a wheelchair -- to be executed by injection early Tuesday for a triple murder he ordered from behind bars to silence witnesses to another killing.
Allen's heart stopped in September, but doctors revived him and returned him to San Quentin Prison's death row.
The only thing that upsets me over this is the fact he died last year only to be revived why was nt he just allowed to die and save time

Sunday, January 15, 2006

WASHINGTON (CNN) -- U.S. politicians have expressed regret over the weekend killings of 18 civilians along Pakistan's border with Afghanistan, but said the airstrike was justified by the erroneous belief that a top al Qaeda leader was among the group, which included women and children.
"Now, it's a regrettable situation, but what else are we supposed to do?" Sen. Evan Bayh, asked rhetorically. "It's like the wild, wild west out there. The Pakistani border's a real problem."
Now there is the responce to what happened from the americians the only one's who actually seem upset are the pakistani's newspapers in australia and uk reported it but there seems to be a shortage of condemation.May be it s the wrong kind of people who were killed .
SF angry at Irish fugitives move
It seems that sinnfein are nt happy with the government of the republic putting on hold plan's to pardon six IRA men wanted south of the border for crime's .A lot of people say that s/f finally saw sence and did what the people wanted .I on the other hand said and stick by it "s/f only gave up on the on the run bill because the british goverment wanted to include secuirty forces."
sinn fiens Gerry kelly said.
The fact was that in the south there is a much smaller number that would be involved," he said.
"But it was still an anomaly which came from the Good Friday Agreement and could have been sorted out."
"The fact that the British have acted in bad faith should be no reason for the Irish government to join them in terms of them refusing to go ahead with this process."
'Restoring devolution'
So this pose's an intersting question "would s/f care about the rights of the people or is it a case of they care about their people"
Now to me a fair sided political party would put rights of people first ,again s/f show us that it has self interst ahead of 'victims rights'
The sooner this party is seen for what they really are the better Northern Ireland will be and mybe then can start healing the wounds that are currently festering.
Unionist's get the blame for not wanting to go ahead but really who can blame them would you want to share power with people who wanted to kill you and your kind.

Saturday, January 14, 2006

Seems that the U.S is taking lessons from Isreal
missile strike apparently targeting al-Qaeda's deputy leader in a village in Pakistan has prompted Islamabad to protest to its American allies.
Ayman al-Zawahiri was not in the village on the border with Afghanistan, Pakistan officials said. But the attack left at least 18 local people dead.
The US military has denied knowledge of the attack, which US media reported had been carried out by the CIA.
But Islamabad condemned the strike and called the US ambassador to complain.
Pakistan's Information Minister Sheikh Rashid Ahmed told a news conference the Pakistani government wanted "to assure the people we will not allow such incidents to reoccur".
He said he did not know whether Zawahiri had been in the area at the time.

According to preliminary investigations there was foreign presence in the area and that, in all probability, was targeted from across the border in Afghanistan
Pakistan foreign ministry
Zawahiri has eluded capture since the US overthrew the Taleban in Afghanistan in 2001 despite a $25m bounty on his head.
Osama Bin Laden's second-in-command is regarded as the ideological brains behind the al-Qaeda network, says BBC security correspondent Gordon Corera.
The Egyptian has also become its most visible spokesperson, issuing a number of video and audio tapes, whilst Osama Bin Laden has not been seen or heard from for more than a year.
Foreign presence
The raid took place in the village of Damadola in the Bajaur tribal area, about 7km (4.5 miles) from the Afghan border.
Jets - or in some accounts a Predator drone - reportedly fired missiles at a particular housing compound in the village.
Tribesmen there are convinced the strike was the work of the Americans and are very angry at the attack.

Zawahiri has been in hiding since 2001
Reporters who reached Damadola spoke of three houses hundreds of metres apart that had been destroyed.
Shah Zaman said he lost two of his sons and a daughter. "I ran out and saw planes. I ran toward a nearby mountain with my wife. When we were running we heard three more explosions. I saw my home being hit.
"According to preliminary investigations there was foreign presence in the area and that, in all probability, was targeted from across the border in Afghanistan," Pakistan's foreign ministry said in a statement, adding it had complained to the US envoy in Islamabad.
A Pakistani intelligence official told Reuters news agency that Damadola was the stronghold of a banned pro-Taleban group, the Tehrik-e-Nifaz-e-Shariat-e-Mohammadi.
The US has about 20,000 troops in Afghanistan, but Pakistan does not allow them to operate across the border.
Pakistan has about 70,000 troops in the border region.

So this is the price the world has to pay for freedom the us has the right to kill anyone so they can try and assinate a top leader ,why not send troops in capture him and send him to trial instead of hoping he is there who is going to speak up for the innocents ,no one as they are nt u.s citizens it seems this outrage will die down .
the price of freedom is it worth your soul?

Here's a story that was on the bbc and hopefully it gets results.It seems that the culture of Northern Ireland is going the way of everything else and protestant culture does nt matter .
Call to return Titanic link ship
The Nomadic took passengers out to the TitanicThe government has been urged to fund the return to Belfast of a ship described as an "important building block" in a Titanic tourist project.
North Belfast MP Nigel Dodds says cash is needed to bring back SS Nomadic, the last of the White Star ships.
The ship, built at Harland and Wolff the year before the Titanic, was used as a tender to take first-class passengers to and from the great liner.
It is currently in Le Harve, France, and will be auctioned on 26 January.
Mr Dodds said SS Nomadic was an "important historical artefact" and "vital" that it was returned home.
"Nomadic is an important building block for the Titanic Signature Project," he said.
"If government is serious about building a strong and vibrant tourism industry in the city, which will undoubtedly have spin-off effects for the whole of Northern Ireland, then it is absolutely imperative that Nomadic comes back to Belfast and serious funding is provided for its return."

The Titanic sank on its maiden voyage to New York
Mr Dodds said the Department of Culture, Arts and Leisure had offered a loan to Belfast City Council but that "does not go far enough".
He said money had been found to buy a 19th century Galway fishing vessel for an Irish language organisation.
"They must not be allowed to abdicate their responsibility for the return of such an important ship as the SS Nomadic," he said.
The 221st ship ferried passengers to the White Star liner Olympic, and in April 1912, it did the same job for Titanic.
Nomadic saw service in both world wars and was later used as a restaurant on the Seine in Paris.
More recently, it has been languishing semi-derelict in the port of Le Havre.
A feasibility study by Belfast City Council estimated the cost of buying the ship and bringing it back to the city would be around £750,000.
It would then need about £7m to restore the ship to its former glory.
Campaigners, including Belfast Industrial Heritage, have been behind efforts to bring Nomadic back to the city where it was made.
It is hoped that the ship will become the centrepiece of a new tourist quarter dedicated to the world's most famous ship.
Other attractions include the slipway where Titanic was built, the drawing offices where the blueprints for the ship were drawn and the Thompson Dock and pump house where she was fitted out.
Titanic entered into legend in 1912 when more than 1,500 people died during its maiden voyage from the UK to America.


Liverpool 1-0 Tottenham
Harry Kewell's 59th-minute volley was enough for Liverpool to claim a deserved victory against Tottenham.

I watched the game this morning while liverpool where a bit slow to start i feel they had the better of the game. After halftime tottenham nearly scored but it was the aussie who got his first goal since 2003.So this sets up a great match next week-end against Man utd who got beat by city today which means we are 1 point behind them with 2 games in hand and playing for second place .

California gov.Arnold Scharzenegger has denied clemacy to Clarence Ray Allen .
Mr Allen who is 75 legally blind nearly deaf has now asked the supreme court to do something it has never done before :block an exection because of the condemned mans advanced age and infirmity.Mr Alllen is scheduled to die on tuesday ,mind you he ordered 3 slayings while behind bars for another murder.
I know he has killed and i dont know when it happened but if he has been on death row for awhile it seems stupid to kill him now how much longer would he live anyway, i suppose they have to get "their justice" before nature does.
His lawyer says "excuting a feeble old man amounts to cruel and unusual punishment,mind you after tookie william's i dont like his chances seems the u.s justice system does nt belive in compassion .

Friday, January 13, 2006


Liverpool vTottenham
Liverpool's Fernando Morientes should return, leaving Bolo Zenden as the only player in the treatment room.
Jose Reina should return in goal in place of Scott Carson, while new boys Jan Kromkamp and Daniel Agger may play.
it should be a good game and a warm up for the big one next sunday Man utd that will show how much we have improved .


Benitez picks up managerial award

Benitez wins November award Liverpool boss Rafael Benitez has won his second consecutive Barclays Premiership Manager of the Month award. It is good to see this i was wary of him when he first joined by he has grown on me and is doing Liverpool proud so cant argue with that way to go
Here is a peice that was written about another member of s/f the people that want to have a united Ireland at any cost.
FROM the moment Martin McGuinness took command of the Derry Brigade in 1971, it quickly developed into one of the Provisional IRA's most effective units, according to a former IRA commander who worked closely with him at the time.
The former terrorist, who is under an IRA death threat after becoming a key informer on the IRA's activities, said that the brigade was driven by McGuinness's own determination and sheer force of personality.
The informer told The Telegraph: "He demanded total commitment and support from subordinates, and he got it. He wouldn't say a lot at meetings, but he was very quick to grasp the key points. And believe me, once he'd made up his mind, that was it - he might be all smiles but nobody ever crossed Martin twice."
Like the intelligence services, this former terrorist is certain that Mr McGuinness took part personally in the Derry Brigade's operations. "It is unlikely he could have got such respect from his volunteers and risen to the top of the tree without getting some blood on his hands."
Soon after the Derry Brigade had turned large areas of the city into "no go" zones, Mr McGuinness was to be found chairing press conferences and guiding journalists around "Free Derry". On one occasion, he introduced a sniper who claimed to have killed a soldier at an observation post on the city's ancient walls.
The anti-British atmosphere in Londonderry was so intense that when Rifleman Joseph Hill of the Royal Green Jackets was shot and killed during rioting in the Bogside area in October 1971, IRA supporters clapped and cheered as his body was taken away. A month later, three young Catholic women were tarred and feathered before jeering crowds in the space of a few days. Their "crime" was going out with British soldiers.
Even though the Derry Brigade controlled the Catholic areas of Londonderry, it made no attempt to prevent the mob's actions. It was only after fierce media criticism that the leadership issued a statement denying any involvement in the attacks, while reiterating its warning against Catholic women fraternising with British soldiers.
On January 27, 1972, three days before Bloody Sunday, a routine police patrol on the fringes of "Free Derry" was ambushed by Provisional gunmen with automatic weapons. Sgt Peter Gilgunn, a 28-year-old Catholic, and a Protestant colleague, Constable David Montgomery, 20, died as 17 bullets ripped through their car.
These were the first local officers to be killed after Mr McGuinness took over the Derry Brigade; today, he pointedly refuses to say whether he sanctioned what one prominent nationalist MP at the time had denounced as "a dastardly act". Last week, Gregory Campbell, a member of the hardline Democratic Unionist Party and Northern Ireland's regional development officer, called on the Saville inquiry to question Mr McGuinness over his involvement in the murders.
In another atrocity carried out by Provisionals two weeks later, armed men dragged Thomas Callaghan, a 45-year-old Catholic who served part-time in the Ulster Defence Regiment, from the bus he was driving. His corpse was found three hours later, hooded and gagged, with his arms tied behind his back and a bullet in his head.
At his funeral, attended by mourners of all faiths, Catholic clergymen condemned the "irresponsible protectors bringing ruin to our city and distress to families". Mr Callaghan's widow observed sadly that she could have accepted his death on UDR duty but not "while he was simply doing his job".
Following two spells in jail in the Irish Republic in the mid-1970s for belonging to the IRA, Mr McGuinness became a power in the Provisionals' "Northern Command". Security sources are convinced that he served as chief of staff from 1978 to 1982 and was involved in the decision to bomb the British mainland.
Apart from running the Derry Brigade during the early 1970s, Mr McGuinness also forged a close relationship with Gerry Adams, then head of the Ballymurphy Brigade in Belfast.
The former IRA commander told The Telegraph that Mr McGuinness and Mr Adams made a formidable terrorist double act. "Don't believe the rubbish about Martin being the hawk and Gerry the dove. They played off each other and God help anybody who got in their way once too often."
While both men could be extremely arrogant and uncaring about the consequences of their actions, the former Provisional said, Mr McGuinness usually tried to avoid civilian casualties in the Derry Brigade's operations.
Sometimes, however, things went badly wrong: on one occasion early in 1972, bombers arrived to blow up a hotel where a Catholic wedding reception was being held. When 17-year-old Alphonsus Patten, best man to his brother, tried to intervene, he was shot in the face at point-blank range and badly wounded.
That incident drew a furious response from the Official IRA, which accused Mr McGuinness's Provisionals of "callous cowardice". The Derry Brigade also came in for scathing criticism in April 1981, after Joanna Mathers, a 27-year-old Protestant, was murdered while collecting completed census forms in a Loyalist area. The Provisionals denied responsibility, but IRA detainees in an H Block of the Maze prison publicly expressed their disgust at the killing.
In August 1988, when Mr McGuinness was no longer in direct operational control in Londonderry but still exercised a powerful influence, a bomb in a house in the Creggan area killed two civilians instantly, one a woman of 60, and fatally wounded another. The Provisionals had planted the bomb in the hope of luring police into a trap, stationing three men nearby to keep local people away.
When Mr McGuinness insisted on attending one of the highly emotional funerals, he was jostled, insulted and sworn at by mourners. The son of one of the victims said that Sinn Fein had offered to pay for the service but were told to get lost. As for Mr McGuinness, "he may have been head of the IRA but he was lucky not to get kicked to death".
Philip Jacobson is the co-author, with Peter Pringle, of Those Are Real Bullets, Aren't They? Bloody Sunday, Derry, 30 January 1972.
So in my opinon what is neeeded in Northern Ireland is new people to lead ,after all Isreal refused to deal with Arafet even thought he was the leader they could nt forget what he had masterminded, yet Blair and his goverment, Ahearn(who does nt want to ever share power with s/f) insist's that unoinist's who never killed have to share power with these men it's no wonder unionist's are wary would nt you be?

Thursday, January 12, 2006

It's nearly six months since i returned to Canada the 18th marks that .It has gone by so quick i seem to just slip in and fit over here but i fit everywhere(modest) .
There are things i miss about Australia like Wags(my dog) Sam my stepdaughter and her kids, And knowing that my other daughter micheala is there somewhere but ill never meet her,after this time with Saoirse i relish what i have missed out on if only i was wiser when i was 17 but life deals us a hand and we take it sometimes we win with it and sometimes we just fold.
So this is to Micheala know this that you are in my thoughts every day and it was nt because i did nt want you it was because well ill tell you that in person.
One day i might get to see you thats one reason im going so hard with this case of mine hoping that the papers pick up on it then your mum see's it then finally tell's you the truth.
I know things wont be the same as you already have a dad but there are some thing's i would like to tell you.
But back to the things i miss vegimite, heat and footy starts soon .But i will gladly give everything up to stay here with my family ,Life is so uncertin at the moment waiting for this and waiting for that .
I have become so close to Saoirse and closer to taylor liam and i have always been close except when i disipline him i dont use violence i do raise my voice sometimes which i should nt as you get more flie's with honey. I ll work on that i know there are some things i need to work on but i know what they are and thats the first step to fixing them.
It's nearly six months since i returned to Canada the 18th marks that .It has gone by so quick i seem to just slip in and fit over here but i fit everywhere(modest) .
There are things i miss about Australia like Wags(my dog) Sam my stepdaughter and her kids, And knowing that my other daughter micheala is there somewhere but ill never meet her,after this time with Saoirse i relish what i have missed out on if only i was wiser when i was 17 but life deals us a hand and we take it sometimes we win with it and sometimes we just fold.
So this is to Micheala know this that you are in my thoughts every day and it was nt because i did nt want you it was because well ill tell you that in person.
One day i might get to see you thats one reason im going so hard with this case of mine hoping that the papers pick up on it then your mum see's it then finally tell's you the truth.
I know things wont be the same as you already have a dad but there are some thing's i would like to tell you.
But back to the things i miss vegimite, heat and footy starts soon .But i will gladly give everything up to stay here with my family ,Life is so uncertin at the moment waiting for this and waiting for that .
I have become so close to Saoirse and closer to taylor liam and i have always been close except when i disipline him i dont use violence i do raise my voice sometimes which i should nt as you get more flie's with honey. I ll work on that i know there are some things i need to work on but i know what they are and thats the first step to fixing them.
Do as i say not as i do?
Seems that gov Arnie Schwarzengger's fat lip caused by a motorcycle crash was nt the only thing he got seems he got a political black eye?
You see arnie does nt have or ever held a motorcycle licence , has nt for years .
His son who was in the side car escaped unhurt.The d.a's office say he wont be charged with a driving violation.Seems there is a different law if you are the gov, only thing i dont understand dont you swear to uphold the laws when you become a governer, the reason they say "is because we did not witness the driving" now it's great to see u.s justice is alive and well .