This time next week will be my last day in Canada for 3and a half months.
I really don't want to go back to Aus now dont get me wrong it's a great country.
But to me it is scarred after all it was my second chance ,after going through all that shit growing up abuse,parents leaving,beating by teachers but one thing i loved Northern IRELAND.
Now i know many dont consider it a country but it is to most of us who grew up there it's home and call it what you want it is still home.
Going to Australia was my second chance at life free to do what ever i wanted people would look after me .And what happens im delivered into the hands of a pedophile,the next 15 years where drugs drink and fights and travelling .A couple of long term relionships thrown in but the where just as bad drinking drugs and fighting(verbal)i never knew why i hated myself but once i had the revelation of being abused it all made sence.
After that Australia was never the same especially Melbourne it made sence why i was always happier when i was alone travelling .
Now i'll have to do thing's when i get there to look after Saoirse and that will keep me busy .
I cant wait to get back here then it will be time for the baby to be born and hopefully thats me here for good .
I really don't want to go back to Aus now dont get me wrong it's a great country.
But to me it is scarred after all it was my second chance ,after going through all that shit growing up abuse,parents leaving,beating by teachers but one thing i loved Northern IRELAND.
Now i know many dont consider it a country but it is to most of us who grew up there it's home and call it what you want it is still home.
Going to Australia was my second chance at life free to do what ever i wanted people would look after me .And what happens im delivered into the hands of a pedophile,the next 15 years where drugs drink and fights and travelling .A couple of long term relionships thrown in but the where just as bad drinking drugs and fighting(verbal)i never knew why i hated myself but once i had the revelation of being abused it all made sence.
After that Australia was never the same especially Melbourne it made sence why i was always happier when i was alone travelling .
Now i'll have to do thing's when i get there to look after Saoirse and that will keep me busy .
I cant wait to get back here then it will be time for the baby to be born and hopefully thats me here for good .
posted by William at 9:11 PM
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