This time last year we had been in the hospital for15 hours waiting for the birth of our daughter emma was full of drugs trying to induce but would she come no she would nt .45 mins later the dr was there telling emma to push and she did and did but still no baby after about a hour and half the dr decided c section so of we went to the o.r and i rem sitting out side just wondering it had been the longest i had stayed in one place with my anexity im usually on the move but here i was sitting waiting then i was asked to come in and held emma's hand as they did there work i looked over to watch them slice open emma and the way they stretched her stomach it was amazing then out she came and they took her over to get cleaned i was asked if i wanted to go i did and just looked at her still shocked that she was actually here. I got to take a couple pics emmas insisted .then i carried her over to show her mum but she was out of it the anthiesist took a pic of us.Then i carried her back i rem feeling nervous in case i dropped her but once i put her down the took saoirse to i c u for babies shelly was outside waiting but we went the other way i watched her get put in then went and told shelly and boy was she crying .emma was still in the o.r getting a cyst taken out .saoirse was screaming and she never stopped they give her a dummy which they never do as i was later told she cried for a hour stright thats why she got it they said she had a headache.i stayed with her for a while then called home after that i went and saw emma she was in recovery she still had nt held saoirse and was taken to her room . i went back to see saoirse then emma again.I went to emma's mums it was about 5 mins from the hospital then it was about 4 am i went to sleep well sort of i was up at 8 and went back to hospital saoirse was with her mum she had only got there not long ago.i could nt stop looking at her this was my daughter and she was so alert . i got to spend the next 7 weeks with her then had to leave it was the second worse day in my life having to leave her i flew to l.a we missed our connecting flight because of storms so they put us up in a hotel overnite . it was new years eve when i got home i never got to see saoirse till july 18th that was one of the worse times in my life i got pics and updates but to know she was growing up without me.would she be strange when we met well no she smiled and within a day she let me hold her and now she always wants me to hold her every day with her and my family is a gift and i make it count .so one final thought her name is saoirse it means freedom in irish she was born 11th 11th at 11 mins to 2 good omen i think she will never be at school on her birthday as its a hoilday in canada.