It's been nearly a week since i got the good news about the verdict im going before the panel.
In that time i have faced them at least 50 time's going over my case in my mind.I dont want it to go wrong i really belive if i get before them i cant lose .But we know in real life it does nt work that way.
I have been told they will try and dig up everything about me but thats ok because everything i have done comes from the abuse, so all im waiting for now is the date .
Still no word from the opi i rang on friday but no reply as yet i was once told if the police goes ahead the other stops untill the police finish now which one should i do first with the medical board i have more chance as the onus is on him to disprove where as with the police the onus is on me to prove and with out witness's yes they want a witness which does nt make sence as we all now child abusers dont have witness otherwise they would get caught .
If i go the medical board it will go public quicker and maybe someone might come foward to back my claims .How i dont want anyone else to be going through this but at least they would belive me quicker.
I also worry that i am the only one and that will make me feel like i was very gullible even though everyone says it was nt my fault .i think its a man thing pride people look at me now and it's like they think look at the size of him how could someone take advantage of him .what i need at the hearing is a blown up picture of myself at 15 to show them i was a kid even though i actually thought i was an adult as i had been on my own most of my life.
In that time i have faced them at least 50 time's going over my case in my mind.I dont want it to go wrong i really belive if i get before them i cant lose .But we know in real life it does nt work that way.
I have been told they will try and dig up everything about me but thats ok because everything i have done comes from the abuse, so all im waiting for now is the date .
Still no word from the opi i rang on friday but no reply as yet i was once told if the police goes ahead the other stops untill the police finish now which one should i do first with the medical board i have more chance as the onus is on him to disprove where as with the police the onus is on me to prove and with out witness's yes they want a witness which does nt make sence as we all now child abusers dont have witness otherwise they would get caught .
If i go the medical board it will go public quicker and maybe someone might come foward to back my claims .How i dont want anyone else to be going through this but at least they would belive me quicker.
I also worry that i am the only one and that will make me feel like i was very gullible even though everyone says it was nt my fault .i think its a man thing pride people look at me now and it's like they think look at the size of him how could someone take advantage of him .what i need at the hearing is a blown up picture of myself at 15 to show them i was a kid even though i actually thought i was an adult as i had been on my own most of my life.
posted by William at 11:11 PM
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