Its been a funny day still waiting for news I sent a email to the sergeant who investigated my compliant against the police to see if his inspector was back no reply.
I had to get a blood test tonight to see if I can get my tablets IM supposed to get one every month never do the tablets can cause liver damage or something like that but getting the neddle brought back memory's I used to blast the speed and I think the longest I went was a seven day binge
and that was good in ways but it was also stupid back then i never knew it was my way of trying to finish my life at least if i did that no one would feel guilt they would just say he was a junkie .I rem one the last day i was at work i drove a forklift but it made no differance i still drove as if i was stright if you saw me when i was stoned you would nt know i was the kind that acted normal and belive me there are plenty out there.Anyway a truckie came in and had the same voice as me i talked and he said how long i said seven days he said 2 weeks. dont know how he did it my brain was scrambled sometimes i could nt even speak id lie in bed at night not sleeping wishing i was asleep and the panic attacks they were like if i was going to have a heart attack sometimes id smile and say to my self if i dont wake up in the morning well then i would nt notice mind you the sleep i had maybe 15 mins if i was lucky.THEN A QUICK BLAST AND BACK TO IT AGAIN not a good way to live but sometimes i miss the neddle is nt that strange but thats the problem with a addiction you never recover you stop and its a daily battle every day is a victory to me and its easier for me as i know why i did it in the first place .